About The Long Way Back
by Zoey Blue
55 pages / 10500 words
ISBN: 978-1-61040-012-1
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Nevin and Peter are in love, but when their relationship falls apart almost as easily as it began, Nevin does his best to convince himself that he's better off without Peter. Too bad it seems no matter how hard they try, the two can't seem to stay away from each other. Sex aside, the rift between them continues to grow. Can they find their way back together or will they let life pull them apart?
Sample
He stayed for three days and I called in sick to
work. It was always that way with us -- all or nothing. Together or
apart.
I wondered what his friends thought of him disappearing for days on end.
He had friends, good friends it seemed.
I, on the other hand, never had any real friends. I had lots of people
who thought they were my friends, but no one who really knew me. No one
I ever really let know me. Inside my head, there has always been this
whole other person that no one gets to meet.
I wonder if the people in my life really think I'm happy all the time.
If they honestly think that I don't have any problems. If they really
think irritations at work, a parking ticket, and not enough sleep are my
biggest worries.
But I can't hold their obliviousness against them, because who really
wants to know the bullshit that goes on in someone else's life? It's
easier to assume that everything is great. And I let them assume,
encouraged it, even.
It's my fault for not letting anybody in, for never letting anyone
really know me. That's the real kicker; when I'm lonely, there is no one
to blame but myself.
He was different, though. I didn't have to let him in; he just walked
right in and sat down, like it had nothing to do with me.
He knew me from the start.
Maybe I should have missed him when he wasn't around. Maybe I did. But
mostly I just felt a little relieved. I've never felt so laid bare as I
did when I was with him, and it was tiring. When he was gone, I could be
alone in my own mind.
But that isn't the whole story, that's just how it started. Two people
who loved to fuck and just happened to get each other. It was easy to
fall into, and I guess that's why it was so easy to fall out of.